Foreverbunny91
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Thankyou all. Foreverbunny thankyou so much for taking the time for that. I will work tru it today
Last week I actually found the fluffy blankets and chocolate was making me worse and I began to feel better after I had painted all my doorframes
Yesterday tho I just couldn't motivate myself to do much of anything, and being that weak was making me angry at myself which was making it worse
I think I have figured out its just really too much too soon. I am not really all that sub, just a kind of bedroom thing, and anything I have done in the past has been in a strong relationship where we loved and trusted each other
It's a totally different thing to do it right at the start, so that makes doubts 100 times bigger for me
I guess I need to build up trust and belief someone cares about me and my wellfare way before a scene
I really appreciate the time you have all taken, honestly I'm not usually a wet hen
And he called me today saying he was sorry but he had been put on medication that totally wiped him out
He's gonna call again after work
I feel pretty stupid, but I guess we do need to talk
Why feel stupid over something that's not only normal (since apparently sub drop is so normal it has a name for itself, unlike many feelings human beings can feel) but just a result of a simple, fixable mistake?
So, you don't need to answer this question, but do you have major depression or dysthymia? Just asking, because if you feel this way in other times, you might want to seek professional counseling. In my experience, it's better to deal with depression before it gets worse.
No need to feel like a wet hen. If I was experiencing the things you were, I can guaruntee you I'd be freaking the fuck out and going down to his house at 3 in the morning... And yes, I have actually done that on more occasions than I'd like to admit!! I don't want to say that you've been wronged, per se, but you do have a right to feel the way you do, so just don't feel foolish.
I wouldn't throw in the towel just yet, since questioning your fantasies and if you're really as into BDSM are symptoms of sub drop. But I would definitely go slow at first and build up trust! Honestly, the only reason I do ANYTHING other than straight and manual sex is because there's a huge amount of trust. And make sure he understands that you need a lot of aftercare, too. If he doesn't comply, he's not worth your time.
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