MIRROR: Download from MEGA Click Here! Sorry I'm using you guys but I know I'm not in a rational state of mind to talk to anyone irl, I know I will say stuff I mean right now but won't mean tomorow After a little phone play the other day I'm dropping again And I have to say I'm failing to see the point At this stage in a vanilla relationship I would be all fuzzy, sweaty, happy bundle of wrapped up limbs with another person who we had both spent long exciting hours learning what floats each others boats I feel cheeted out of that when I'm sad lonely confused and insecure I don't like pain, I get a kind of high from pride/relief when it ends But a wee 'good girl' a hug then back to watching tv. Or being fucked then he heads off to work? What do you get out of this? Is this all there is?