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A lot to respond to, will try my best. First, monogamy is very important to both of us. Her fantasies, as well as some of mine, that involve others, will never be realized. While the sexual part is a turn on, the reality of life is it would present some very serious, unresolvable issues to our marriage. So, I don't believe it's guilt, or religion that's causing it. As sabastian put in another thread, monogamous and polygamous people, we are definitely monogamous. As far as previous experience, she's eluded to touching, kissing in high school. Talking tonight, she never knew 'this kinda stuff existed until me.' Her fantasy involves more of power/control sexually of people. Kinda fitting, I thought. As far as appearing like I don't think she's crazy, I don't have to appear like it, I don't think she's crazy. Hearing her fantasies turns me on.
The 100% in the relationship. I agree mostly. Talking tonight, it was a different story. It seems we are now moving forward, to the same place. Let me see if I can explain. We played around today, as far as control play. We both enjoyed it. She said that 24/7 is something she would like to work towards now. She also says she's always wanted to beat the shit out of me....seems like a win/win. So I'm getting mixed signals which way she wants to go. I don't know if it's because I threw a lot at her at once, or she is
figuring out her feelings about it. But I think that we may very well be our inverse compliment to each other. That'll only be told in time.
I could never leave my wife. Her and our family mean way too much to me. I'll box everything up before I put my wants before our marriage and family. I guess first, I'm a family man, everything else is a want. Yes, I want to serve her, and her to want to be served. The issue with that is I work at night. I'm a truck driver. When I get home, it's really tough for it to play out to I serve her. It usually ends up the other way. If we try to do anything, it can't really be sexual, unless the children are napping, and even then, it's difficult, trying to juggle sleep schedules. Always feels rushed. So when we do play, it's more of power, non-sexual play. Like today, a little choking, slapping, touchy feely type stuff.
So, I guess that's another issue to find a work around for. I hope I answered everything for you accurately. I'll be up for the next 10 hours or so.
One last thought. Texting and driving isn't allowed..... never said forum posts.....a little humor there....
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