Like I wrote in the poll above, I was in my teens when I discovered that I longed for something.. different. Ordinary sex and surroundings just didn't please me in the way I wanted it to. I'd often ask my boyfriend at the time to be "mean" to me during sex, but I didn't realize back then that THIS is what I wanted. I was lucky enough to find someone who brought the submissive side in me out, and for that I am forever grateful to my Master. I feel more than lucky to have him and to serve him, whatever his wishes may be. We aren't the most hardcore (yet) but i want nothing more than to explore this world further, and I hope I can be a member of your community to learn from the more experienced people out there. I also have a question for you, if you'd be so kind as to take the time to answer me. For those of you who were timid in the beginning, timid about going public with your relationship, did you ever get over it, or does this go on behind closed doors? And on another note, for those of you that are subs, do you have the feeling that the Master you're serving now is the only one you'll ever serve? I have this intense feeling that I'd never want to live this lifestyle with anyone but Him, and I don't really know what that means. Does it mean I'm not committed to this lifestyle, or that I've really found my one, true Master? Sorry for all the rambling, dull morning I don't know if this is the right place to post it, but if anyones interested I just started writing my first slaveblog, and would love some comments in it; http://hisobedientslave.blogspot.com/ Thanks for reading!