I was introduced to bdsm by someone who drugged me but I enjoyed it. Long story. I miss my master but I am married to someone who has potential though. Except he likes to hit real hard. He tells me this is what I would have felt had I been sober during the time with my last master. I think he may just have a mean streak. Well I am willing to cheat to see my old master and possibly leave but not until I finish school. I will be using my present master but my old master wants me educated. Then maybe I can be somewhere in life where I have more control over things. My own money and the master of my choice. I am a submissive by choice but realize that I don't always like the role 24/7. I want to be dominate in the work world and submissive in the house. My old master has experience of years, and my current master/husband is new to it and thinks it's all about pain. What he wants. I am hoping to leave him soon. The other thing is he always makes me cum and he has only cummed twice with me in almost 8 years of being with me.