Hey guys. A few of you probably noticed that I poofed for about a week or 2 ^^; I broke up with my fiance. The fact that she was denying me the lifestyle made me violent. I'm a drug addict, I need my submissive hit. I nearly killed her. So, I decided to give my ex boyfriend/master another chance. Its everything I wanted and more. and me and him have grow to better suit each other, even though we were apart for so long. It was, and still is, amazing how everything I want, in a partner and a master, is right here right now. And we're getting so comfortable so quickly, like time never existed and we've been together forever already. Though, I found the reason why I've become submissive. Well, naturally I always was. Not as submissive as I am now, but I was always a submissive personality. I was roleplaying online one day, and my friend and I were having a deep deep rp. My character nearly killed his, and was now apologizing. His character had gone dark, had taken on an emotionless tone, and told my character to get out, and never come back. My mind went blank then, everything got fuzzy and I felt something in the back of my mind snap. Well, after having Master analize the old rp, he dropped a bomb on me; the opposing character used a technique that is used to put slaves in their place in the rp. Well, since that rp last year, I've never been the same. The lifestyle was all I thought about, all I cared about. I wanted to be submissive to obey someone, to give up my freedom and my will. And over time this feeling, needing, got worse and worse. I'm addicted to the high that being submissive gives me, and when Master's not around. I get moody and irritable. So all this, my life being hell for the past year, was triggered by one little roleplay.