MIRROR: Download from MEGA I just can't fucking deal with my life anymore. I am so depressed it isn't even funny. My puppy asked if I would cook hamburger helper for her tonight and I said sure, but the thing is that I don't even want to cook. I love cooking, but I just...don't have the will to do it. I even talked to her this morning about me being depressed, but I still don't feel better. Life is just piling down on to me. Things with Puppy and I are finally great. We're in a closed relationship, starting to do more SM in the bedroom. Yet I can't seem to enjoy it, now that I finally have that. I just got friend dumped because I forgot to text my friend when I could hang out/when the Harry Potter tickets were on sale. Also because I had already bought the tickets for me and another friend who is coming along. She made it out to seem like it was my entire fault and that I had forgotten on purpose. I HAVE FUCKING DEPRESSION, BITCH. And tendencies for Non-verbal learning disorder AND adhd. I forget shit ALL the time. And when I don't forget, I get distracted. Plus add in roommate drama and relationship drama, why the fuck would you think that I would remember something as small as that? I know I hurt her feelings, but I can't really feel any sympathy for her as I'm going through a difficult time in my life too. If she just doesn't want to be my friend anymore because I'm not "making an effort", then fine. I do try, but I also get swamped with life. Recently I've become very suicidal again and angry and it's scaring me. I haven't been like this in a while, but I'm very much afraid of being alone right now. There's even more than that, but it's honestly just too much to post... I don't know, maybe I'm overreacting about everything. I am just so tired. Tired down to my very core.