I'm not expecting a grand return or a lot of hugs but maybe some forgiveness. I have missed some people here and kept you in my thoughts. It's been a rough (how long have I been gone?) Anyways I've come to the realization that I need the good advise here and I need the friendships I was starting to make. So Let me start by saying I am sorry for any hard feelings my views caused, they aren't changed but I'll keep my mouth shut about the past and accept that while I can be very open minded something just aren't gonna work for me and I should nod and smile. It's a bit ironic really, but I've even come to understand how someone can come to the conclusion that death might be a blessing. Luckily I have an extreme and unreasonable fear of dying or I'd prolly have taken my life in the last week or so.