I was curious about my dominant side and decided to find a submissive who didn't mind playing with an inexperienced mistress. I found a sub who had never tried anything with BDSM before online, met him in person and decided I liked him. We started playing together, then hanging out a lot. Fast forward two months, and now we've been dating for almost two weeks. We've gotten slowly more vanilla and have been playing less and less since we've started dating. I've decided I want to start playing more and putting more D/s dynamic in our relationship. I enjoy his company regardless, but it doesn't feel right being all vanilla all the time. However, I am bothered by the fact that I feel the NEED to nurture him and take care of him and be really damn motherly to him. I take care of his ingrown hairs and cook him dinner for Christ's sake! I tried to be this way with my ex, but he would NOT have it. My subby enjoys it MOST of the time... At least when we're playing or I'm acting particularly dominant. But he doesn't when we're being all vanilla-y. I take care of his skin, make sure he brushes his teeth and dental flosses, make sure he has lunch when he goes to work, stroke his hair in the car, give him baths, make him dinner, etc. I would say that perhaps these are the things I like being done for me as a sub (I'm a babygirl), but I know it goes deeper. I'm NOT a Mommy, and I'm sure it would be a turn-off to both of us to play the roles of Mommy/babyboy. And the BIG issue is that I could NEVER hurt him. See, I just got out of a 4.5 year relationship in July, and I feel like I moved into this relationship too fast. We were supposed to just try it out for a week... I don't want to break up with him, but if I ever did, I wouldn't be able to. I feel stuck, because I'd NEVER want to hurt him, but how would I get out of this relationship if I so needed to? Also, even though he has agreed to switch on occasion (and even work with a mentor!), he does not agree to D/lg. He won't do poly or open relationships or let me play with other men, and I'm not into women, and being unfaithful is NOT an option (been there, done that, NEVER doing it again!)... But, I do feel that I will need a Daddy eventually Any advice or commentary would be much appreciated!