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Hello everyone!
I guess I'll introduce myself since this is my first thread. I just turned 18, and I'm going off to college in Orlando. This is a huge step for me since my aunt and uncle (with whom I resided) were incredibly strict, to the point that I really didn't have a life. I decided that once I was 18 I would find aforum filled with like minded people, so here I am. If you have any questions just ask.
Now, my issue is I have been into S&M for a long time. Probably around 7 years. It is a part of me and I love to please people. I've always dreamed of finding a mistress or a master to serve. My current boyfriend accepts my fetish but he could never hurt me, tie me up or command me. It just isn't in his personality and I accept him as he is. I tried explaining to him what I was into once, but I think it was a bit too much at once, esp. Since I love pain to such an extent. I told him I would do all I could do to rid myself of this, if it was what he desired. Truly, I see no issues with. This side of me, and as hard as I try I cant let go of it. It's a part of me, as I said before and I still want a master or a mistress more than anything. Does anyone know of any way I can tell him this IS who I am? I've tried, in words that blunt, but he keeps assuring me that if I were to try hard enough I could rid myself of this. It isn't fair. This is what I want, what I've waited for and now I can't make him see.
Any advice is appreciated. Also, if my grammar is bad, I've typed all this on a cell phone, so sorry.
-Surreal
I guess I'll introduce myself since this is my first thread. I just turned 18, and I'm going off to college in Orlando. This is a huge step for me since my aunt and uncle (with whom I resided) were incredibly strict, to the point that I really didn't have a life. I decided that once I was 18 I would find aforum filled with like minded people, so here I am. If you have any questions just ask.
Now, my issue is I have been into S&M for a long time. Probably around 7 years. It is a part of me and I love to please people. I've always dreamed of finding a mistress or a master to serve. My current boyfriend accepts my fetish but he could never hurt me, tie me up or command me. It just isn't in his personality and I accept him as he is. I tried explaining to him what I was into once, but I think it was a bit too much at once, esp. Since I love pain to such an extent. I told him I would do all I could do to rid myself of this, if it was what he desired. Truly, I see no issues with. This side of me, and as hard as I try I cant let go of it. It's a part of me, as I said before and I still want a master or a mistress more than anything. Does anyone know of any way I can tell him this IS who I am? I've tried, in words that blunt, but he keeps assuring me that if I were to try hard enough I could rid myself of this. It isn't fair. This is what I want, what I've waited for and now I can't make him see.
Any advice is appreciated. Also, if my grammar is bad, I've typed all this on a cell phone, so sorry.
-Surreal
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