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Hi there,
no need to introduce myself by name as my username says it all really ;-)
I am a larger lady, VERY curious about the BDSM scene, with very little experience in it.
At the moment I am not looking for anything IRL, I am too suscpicious of people to meet anyone IRL again.....
About 8 years I met a master IRL, and the experience terrified me I have to say.
He came accross as fairly nice, obviously with a dom streak, but kind and caring too.
we had chatted a lot, and i had explained i was new to all this, and wanting a master who was kind and caring and who would take me through things slowly and gently etc.
the guy terrified me, to the point where for the 24 hours i was with him i couldnt relax one bit and couldnt sleep, i thought he was going to do something bad.
He WASNT very understanding that I was new to this, and seemed to just want to inflict as much on me in as short a time as possible. He was selfish arrogant and totally scarey.
For my first ever experience of anything like this he was sticking needles in my butt and breasts, using mole grips on me, hot wax, bondage, humiliation games, gagging, severe spaking, using whips and paddles on all parts of me, urination on me, leaving me tied and gagged for hours, using all sorts of massively sized dildos and butt plugs, and more....
It wasnt just what he did but the fact that he knew i was brand new to all this and had wanted to go slow with it all. he didnt tell me what he was going to do or what he was doing, he was harsh and strict.
now, dont get me wrong, had I been an experienced slave and had I known him better this may all have been fine.
But it has really put me off exploring this side of my curiosity for all these years. His parting words to me were "you're a fucking useless slave go back to boring fucking and forget BDSM you'll always be fucking uselss"
Are all masters / mistresses like this and it is just a case of me missing the point, or are there people out there who can genuinely be nice and dominent at the same time?
The other issue is being a BBW that has held me back too.....
_k_
no need to introduce myself by name as my username says it all really ;-)
I am a larger lady, VERY curious about the BDSM scene, with very little experience in it.
At the moment I am not looking for anything IRL, I am too suscpicious of people to meet anyone IRL again.....
About 8 years I met a master IRL, and the experience terrified me I have to say.
He came accross as fairly nice, obviously with a dom streak, but kind and caring too.
we had chatted a lot, and i had explained i was new to all this, and wanting a master who was kind and caring and who would take me through things slowly and gently etc.
the guy terrified me, to the point where for the 24 hours i was with him i couldnt relax one bit and couldnt sleep, i thought he was going to do something bad.
He WASNT very understanding that I was new to this, and seemed to just want to inflict as much on me in as short a time as possible. He was selfish arrogant and totally scarey.
For my first ever experience of anything like this he was sticking needles in my butt and breasts, using mole grips on me, hot wax, bondage, humiliation games, gagging, severe spaking, using whips and paddles on all parts of me, urination on me, leaving me tied and gagged for hours, using all sorts of massively sized dildos and butt plugs, and more....
It wasnt just what he did but the fact that he knew i was brand new to all this and had wanted to go slow with it all. he didnt tell me what he was going to do or what he was doing, he was harsh and strict.
now, dont get me wrong, had I been an experienced slave and had I known him better this may all have been fine.
But it has really put me off exploring this side of my curiosity for all these years. His parting words to me were "you're a fucking useless slave go back to boring fucking and forget BDSM you'll always be fucking uselss"
Are all masters / mistresses like this and it is just a case of me missing the point, or are there people out there who can genuinely be nice and dominent at the same time?
The other issue is being a BBW that has held me back too.....
_k_
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