Recent content by Paredes

it wasn't easy at first, and i relapsed very briefly at the age of 21, triggered simply by seeing another persons cuts. i missed it. i still do. but i can't afford to do it now. i couldn't put the people who are close to me through the worry i know they would go through if they found out. i...

i like how strong it makes me feel. proving to myself (and the other person) how much pain i can take. the feel of my heart beating and cuts stinging at the same time makes me feel almost invincible (as crazy as that sounds)

I'm an ex self harmer who stopped by the age 19. I found myself to be cutting not for the fact i was upset, angry or whatever normal self harmers do, but more because i enjoyed the pain so much I found it addictive. I stopped because my partner at the time begged me to. I never hated myself...