MIRROR: Download from MEGA Click Here! I like to go slow with subs just in case... I know it's not the hottest thing ever, but the last thing I want to do is cause someone psychological damage. I met a particular sub who is REALLY into pegging and pain. We met up once and did some light play. He was grateful but ultimately unsatisfied with this. He detailed out a scene to me that involved quite a bit of pain and some hardcore anal play. He said he was used to all of this. So he brings his toys (the boy has a pretty damn impressive toy collection for a sub!) and we play. Lots of pain, but the scene ended abruptly after his bum had started bleeding. He insisted this was okay, but I stopped the scene, because I don't want to be responsible for any injuries. He got a bubble bath and then we went to Taco Bell. Before we went to bed, he said he wanted me to keep his toys and he believes he'd just lost interest in submission. I tried to protest keeping his things, but he said he had no use for them. This really, really bothers me. I suppose perhaps it bothered him that I didn't get off. (I never do with other people. I have tried a LOT, but it's just not how my body works.) He had asked me at Taco Bell what I get out of doing things like this. I told him playfully that it satisfies my sadistic side. (I didn't particularly feel like getting into why I like to top.) Or perhaps, he actually does want to play more but he finds it odd using his toys and prefers they be mine... Or maybe he really has just lost interest and I shouldn't internalize it. I need all sorts of advice right now. What do I do? What do you think happened? Is it my fault? Did I do anything wrong? If not, how do I stop from blaming myself?!?!? Advice ASAP would be appreciated.