My longtime dom passed away in November. It's been really rough; no one in my "real life" knows I'm in the scene and I couldn't mourn openly. On some of the sex forums I used to hang out at, a lot of doms assumed I was immediately available and started pushing me to move on...with them, of course. It was hard to explain how I felt, what a deep emotional connection it was, and how completely lost I was without him. So I pretty much just isolated from the community, from all the other forums, and tried to look normal in "real life." I finally started to feel a little better in the past week or so - I mean, I wasn't weepily depressed for 6 months straight, I had good times and bad times like everyone else, but now I feel like I've gotten to the "acceptance" stage of grief. I don't know if I can move on yet, but I need to move forward. How do you deal with an involuntary loss? - maybe not something as final as a death, but a serious illness or faraway relocation, for instance. And how do you move on after that? I would really like to hear from anyone who's gone through this...maybe you can help me or I can help you. I wasn't sure I could actually write this but I feel a physical sense of relief now. Thanks for listening.