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Background of my story: My girlfriend the first few times we had sex, she would sometimes not move, and looked almost asleep. I just thought she was just bad in bed... then I found out after much prodding that her fantasy was that someone drugged her and date raped her. So she lived that scenario in her head.
Not that she wanted to be raped, but it was a fantasy. I think she's clearly submissive, but so scared to be submissive, she can only fulfill her kinks by fantasizing she's drugged, as in that she has no choice.
Toys scare her, she can't go in to a sex shop, or even play with a toy. Even though when she is alone, she plays with her ass, and has finger fucked me in my ass, bitten me, asked permission to cum. etc etc... Its just the toys... or the image of sex... Its like her kinky side and her "sex is only missionary" side are always fighting.
This turned into more of a rant than anything else... lol. I wish she could be more at ease with who she is.
Right now we might have really kinky sex, that if I mention later in the morning, she'll almost pretend it didn't happen.
Anyway, she accidentally found "the box". The one with the handcuffs buttplugs rope collars leashes and all the other fun stuff. (I knew her problems, so I had decided not to show them to her yet)
Oh well... not that Im ashamed of my kinks, but its always something that needs a bit of trust to come out.
And now she says she unsure about us and our relationship. *sigh* Why are people so complicated?
(I don't really expect a solution... was more one of those rants I had to do with people who understand the kinky side of life lol)
Not that she wanted to be raped, but it was a fantasy. I think she's clearly submissive, but so scared to be submissive, she can only fulfill her kinks by fantasizing she's drugged, as in that she has no choice.
Toys scare her, she can't go in to a sex shop, or even play with a toy. Even though when she is alone, she plays with her ass, and has finger fucked me in my ass, bitten me, asked permission to cum. etc etc... Its just the toys... or the image of sex... Its like her kinky side and her "sex is only missionary" side are always fighting.
This turned into more of a rant than anything else... lol. I wish she could be more at ease with who she is.
Right now we might have really kinky sex, that if I mention later in the morning, she'll almost pretend it didn't happen.
Anyway, she accidentally found "the box". The one with the handcuffs buttplugs rope collars leashes and all the other fun stuff. (I knew her problems, so I had decided not to show them to her yet)
Oh well... not that Im ashamed of my kinks, but its always something that needs a bit of trust to come out.
And now she says she unsure about us and our relationship. *sigh* Why are people so complicated?
(I don't really expect a solution... was more one of those rants I had to do with people who understand the kinky side of life lol)
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