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Subarama, I think your feeling outside your comfort zone. When you were the giver, that's what you came to know as what is the norm for the relationship. As the scale weights, if you will, shifted, now your placed in a brand new, unexamined area of your life and relationship. This feels foreign, different, and scary, to an extent. Being placed outside what you have come to know as your role, now you have more of a say than you had before, which commands a certain amount of decision making.
Decision, of Greek origin, literally means "to cut away" which means there's parts that you are now second guessing about decisions you've made. As communication is the only way we humans have of expression, I think it's very important to discuss your feelings, bluntly, with your husband. Listen to his answers, make sure he's being blunt with you, also. As it was put before, paradox is a main feature of BDSM. But, if you and him examine both sides, and both are happy, hell, go for it!
I don't know if this means anything, but a friend that I dare to consider close, s a Socrates quote.... "a life unexamined isn't worth living" I don't know what that means to you, but felt I had to share for some reason.
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