Dear Masters, Mistresses, slaves, and others, Someone please help me. My master is not acting like my master at all. I came into this relationship three years ago hoping someone would finally control me, take over my mind, and give me a place to explore every one of my fantasies and teach me things I have never even imagined. But every since we moved in together two years ago, the relationship is so vanilla! I am so emotionally and sexually frustrated. He used to call me and make me masturbate where ever I was at that moment. He used to e-mail me with orders for the day. He used to make me kneel in one spot while he got ready. But now he won't even order me to make his dinner. I try to misbehave in hopes for a spanking, but he just gets mad at me and walks away in a huff. And when we are happy together, he just asks for cuddles and kisses when I want spanks and whippings. He still makes me call him master, but he is not acting tough and powerful like he used to. I am a virgin slave and he wants to wait until after marriage to have sex. He thinks it will be better for me, emotionally. I want to have sex with him! We have done everything else! I want him to tie me up and do things to me. I want him to take control while he blindfolds and gags me and tells me how he will torture me! But in the three years we have been together, he only tied me up three times!!!! The rope, cuffs, collars, vibrators, plugs, and nipple clamps sit in a chest in the back of the closet. He bought those for me at the beginning of our relationship and we have barely used them. I need discipline! I crave spankings! I know he is capable of doing these things because he told me he has done them with other slaves. I think he loved me too much. He tells me he didn't care about the other slaves and he does want to hurt me. The problem is i want to be hurt!! I have told him all of this several times, but i don't think he listens. He loves me and I love him. He wants to marry me and already calls me his slave wife. But i don't know how much longer I can stay in this relationship is there is no bondage involved at all. I moved 10 hours away from home in hopes to start a 24 hour SM relationship with this man, something I've wanted since I was 16. I am now 22 and I thought my dreams were coming true. But this just feels like any normal dying relationship. Help me!