MistressMaria86
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Hello, so having read various messages and not quite finding what I am looking for I thought I would post my own situation in the hope that someone can offer some advice.
Up until a couple of months ago I still had my 'V' plates - yes at 31 this is is not usual I know but then again I didnt start living until three yrs ago when I took control of my weight. Up until that point I was shy intoverted had no real friends and subsequently no one had ever come near me (in a sexual way). I was so ashamed of my body I knew that no one would even want to. So three yrs on I am now a more respectable size and have a lot more of a life, friends etc. So met this guy through our shared interest of something completely vanilla and we struck up a friendship.After a while he confessed to having an interest in BDSM and in particular being a sub - he had had relationships in the past and it had always formed part of them. It had always been a curiosity of mine and rather conveniently I wanted to be on the other side but had not really ever thought about pursuing it - I hadnt even gone on a first date! We started texting and eventually I felt I had to tell him about my 'predicament' ie lack of any experience and very low self esteem with regard to revealing myself. Although he didnt want a relationship with me he was willing to help me out in any way that i wanted - ie to help me get over my issues. I guess in return I would be a domme for him. So fast forward a couple of months and I lost my virginity to this guy and I have cropped, flogged, tied him up, dropped candle wax on him. He has said he wants me to come up with things for him to do - lick kisss suck various parts of me, he wants to smell my boots and wants breath play - me sitting astride him but there is just one small problem - we are not in a relationship - ie bf and gf. I therefore am worried about asking him to do something that might be reserved for couples - he cant really worship me if he isnt really attracted to me can he?? He has said he wants to be forced to his knees etc but would he really want to service me with his tongue when we are really just friends?
I guess i just want some maybe game ideas or suggestions of other things that I can do which fulfil his desire to be dominated but yet dont go too far down the initimate route. He has said again and again that I am in charge but the problem is when you have gone from 0-60 in terms of physical experience its quite overwhelming to suddenly telling someone else what to do when I dont know much myself!!
Any thoughts greatfully appreciated.
MM
Up until a couple of months ago I still had my 'V' plates - yes at 31 this is is not usual I know but then again I didnt start living until three yrs ago when I took control of my weight. Up until that point I was shy intoverted had no real friends and subsequently no one had ever come near me (in a sexual way). I was so ashamed of my body I knew that no one would even want to. So three yrs on I am now a more respectable size and have a lot more of a life, friends etc. So met this guy through our shared interest of something completely vanilla and we struck up a friendship.After a while he confessed to having an interest in BDSM and in particular being a sub - he had had relationships in the past and it had always formed part of them. It had always been a curiosity of mine and rather conveniently I wanted to be on the other side but had not really ever thought about pursuing it - I hadnt even gone on a first date! We started texting and eventually I felt I had to tell him about my 'predicament' ie lack of any experience and very low self esteem with regard to revealing myself. Although he didnt want a relationship with me he was willing to help me out in any way that i wanted - ie to help me get over my issues. I guess in return I would be a domme for him. So fast forward a couple of months and I lost my virginity to this guy and I have cropped, flogged, tied him up, dropped candle wax on him. He has said he wants me to come up with things for him to do - lick kisss suck various parts of me, he wants to smell my boots and wants breath play - me sitting astride him but there is just one small problem - we are not in a relationship - ie bf and gf. I therefore am worried about asking him to do something that might be reserved for couples - he cant really worship me if he isnt really attracted to me can he?? He has said he wants to be forced to his knees etc but would he really want to service me with his tongue when we are really just friends?
I guess i just want some maybe game ideas or suggestions of other things that I can do which fulfil his desire to be dominated but yet dont go too far down the initimate route. He has said again and again that I am in charge but the problem is when you have gone from 0-60 in terms of physical experience its quite overwhelming to suddenly telling someone else what to do when I dont know much myself!!
Any thoughts greatfully appreciated.
MM
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