I met my master two years ago. We met on a bdsm website, and he took my depressed, broken soul into his caring arms. He made me happy and saved me from further self destruction. He trained me over the phone and watched me crawl and masturbate on the webcam. Throughout the day, he would call me and give me orders while I was at college, like masturbate in the bathroom or in my car between classes. He told me what to wear every morning and he watch me get ready. I got to the point where I didn't know what to do without him, and I longed for the day I could be tied to his bed, blindfolded and waiting for his firm hand. I have been living with him for almost a year now, and things are way different than how it started out. He promised to train me, to dominate me, but those situations rarely happen. Don't get me wrong, he treats me very well. He holds me at night, he kisses me, cuddles me, and tells me he loves me a countless amount of times during the day. I love him and he loves me, but I feel like I'm a vanilla relationship most of the time and that is not what I moved ten hours away from home for. He does say " do you love your master?" and I reply " of course, master." He orders me to do little things for him, like get his suit or make him dinner. He calls himself my master but rarely do we do any sort of bondage or discipline. I have to beg for spanks. I have to beg for him to cuff me. And if he does those things, he wont do it for long. He does make me orgasm, and let's me give him blow jobs, but I need more bondage and discipline. I even try to act up and be naughty, but he just lightly scolds me instead of giving me the hard whippings I want. When I talk to him about this, he promises to do more things to me, then goes on to describe those dirty things while making me cum, but those things never happen. I don't know what to do. I love my master and I am going to marry him one day, but I need to be spanked and whipped. I know he cares for me dearly and he would never do anything to hurt me inside. But I need more than just cuddles and kisses. I crave that kind of pain and domination, but he doesn't give that to me anymore...I feel bad because he already gives me so much and I hate to ask for more. What should I do? Is there anything I can do?