ShadowMasta
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I recently found out by accident that my wife of over 5 years has recently found a need to be in an online D/s relationship with another man. Although she has told me her desire to experiment in this sort of things, she still will not totally open up to me especially by the fact that she has a Dom. I know she thinks that I won't understand and that I will overact and based on my current feelings maybe she is right, I just feeling be totally honest no matter how scary is better than hiding things from me. I guess what makes it more complicated is that I know more than she thinks I know so maybe while she thinks she is not hurting me she actually is doing just that. I love my wife very much and am willing to experiment in all these sorts of things with her but she has told me that she doesn't see me that way. It hurts me that she does these things with another man, it feels like cheating to me even though from my research I understand that it is more complicated than that, that there is a need she needs filling and maybe rather than leaving me she is doing this instead. I will never be comfortable with her being with another man. She thinks I am being ridiculous when I voice my concerns about having a D/s relationship saying she isn't exactly going out and F#@$@ some guy for real but regardless an online D/s relationship with another guy to me is just as much an emotional F@%@% as is a real F@%@%. We have introduced toys into our relationship and I have shown her that I can satisfy her cravings to a degree just not 24/7. I would not be comfortable with her doing this in real life even if there was no sex involved, I just feel that is stretching the boundaries of marriage. I am however very willing to learn and participate with her. I feel that there needs to be sacrifices from both of us. She can't have everything she wants in life, there needs to be comprises. I have refrained from exploding so far even though it has been killing me (sore heart, physically sick, sleepless nights), instead I have been trying to research the topic as much as possible to try and understand how she feel's. Lately I am trying to show trust in her and am not watching over her in a hope she might open up to me. I have thought of therapy for me, I don't think she would go, she see's it as there being something wrong with her although I don't think there is, I just want us to discuss how this is affecting both our lives and how to deal with it. I guess my biggest issue is her relationship with her Dom, she wears jewelry to show that she belongs to him, a secret bond between the 2 of them, and that is eating me up inside especially that she is hiding it from me
Well thats my story. Advice and comments welcome
Well thats my story. Advice and comments welcome
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