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Honestly, it sounds like your body or your mind hasn't fully recovered from your surgery yet. I'm not a doctor, and you don't really go into much detail, but there are all sorts of medical issues that could be going on here, depending on what the surgery involved and how you feel about it.
1) Maybe there's a medical problem with the surgery site that is interfering with your ability to enjoy sex.
2) Maybe your body is still recuperating or getting used to the changes the surgery created. (For example, I had my gall bladder out last year. It was outpatient surgery, and I didn't have many side effects, but my roommate had the same operation last month and still feels bloated. Some people can't eat spicy foods for months after that surgery, and some have trouble with diarrhea for a long time.) So it's plausible if you had surgery like that that you might feel up to speed but your body isn't actually ready for it.
3) Maybe the surgery knocked your hormones out of order in some way.
4) Perhaps you're feeling depressed about the surgery (maybe you feel less attractive, or you feel like you're no longer as young as you were, or maybe you're worried about your health in general--just guessing here). Depression can really erode your sex drive.
5) Maybe you're depressed about something unrelated to the surgery, but the surgery was the trigger for this problem.
All of this is just guessing; I'm just pointing out possibilities for you to consider. I would talk to the doctor who performed the surgery and explain the situation to him; ask if it's possible that the surgery itself could be affecting your sex drive. If he doesn't think so, think about psychological issues and consider going for an assessment with a therapist.
Another way to approach this is to reduce the pressure on you to enjoy sex. Agree with your dom that you won't actually have sex for a couple weeks. Focus on exploring submission through domestic service, dressing to please him and other non-sexual things. Instead of actually having sex, lie down with him and ask him to describe what he wants to do to you, and essentially talk through a fantasy instead of playing something out. While you're talking, he should stroke your body, nuzzle you, and otherwise do light sexual play. The goal here is not for you to orgasm or anything, but just to find a way to enjoy being sexual without actually having the pressure of sex. So you and he can indulge any fantasies you have that you're not ready to do physically--hardcore whipping, rape scenes, whatever--because there's no actual risk or skill involved other than talking erotically. Even if you can't find the cause of the problem itself, it might jump-start your sex drive.
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