It's kinda hard for me to actually come out like this... so I hope I make sense. I'm a sub, I brought my girlfriend into it, and we did try my being dominant, but I just don't have the knack for it. She can do either, but lately has started enjoying being the dominant to me instead, and I like it that way, it's not a 24/7 one, since we're an LDR couple (though hoping someday to join her) but when we do, surrendering myself to her... I couldn't go back to just normal sort of things after that. I don't think anyone could. I actually have two questions, since I just realised while typing this I had the other. My first, and the original, is about my family... they don't know anything about this, and they're the kind of people who are 'old school' and consider even mentioning sex and similar taboo, never to be talked about, and I'm a bit afraid of what would happen if they found out about my submissive nature, and the things I do for master that I try to keep from them. I don't know what they'd do, or what I'd do, and it bothers me a bit. It's made a bit easier because I have my own laptop, so I can hide most of it like that, but sometimes it's still hard to keep it from them, sometimes they'll come disturbingly close to finding out, and I don't like that. Not really a question I guess. The other one I realised, is that I'm having trouble finding new things to do with master. I suffer from a mild case of Aspergers, not too much, but it's enough that I have that typical difficulty in social situations in the real world, and it also makes it hard for me to improvise, and come up with new things. See normally, I'm her pup (One of many pups, if reading here is anything to go by!) and we sort of help each other along through a role played situation, of something we would want to do if we were together, and I'm running out of ideas for that, and I had very few to start with, to be honest. I know from reading here that it's mostly really tailored to what she likes, and what we're in to, but I want to know what sort of other things we could do, get some more ideas. That's about all I got for now, and my courage in registering and posting is almost used up. I don't know why it was so hard for me to do it, but... well, I guess I'm probably not the only one. And apologies to my master, who though as far as I know has only visited once, will probably recognise me immediately if she visits again. I promised her I'd read only, but I felt needed to ask. Hope you understand master, since you're away and I can't see or talk with you today.