I don't think I have it in me. My sub girlfriend keeps making me mad on purpose, and while drunk I'll happily grab her hair and hold her face down to the floor while I tell her off and spank her ass... but when she starts moaning and showing signs of pain I let go because I feel bad for her. Then she starts mocking me for letting her go and being nice to her. I have all these ideas of punishment, but when it comes down to her I realise I love her & can't go far with it. When she pretends she doesn't want sex, she expects me to hold her down with my body weight and do her anyway. But when she says no a few times it puts me off & I can't go ahead with it as it makes me feel a bit rapey. Did any of you guys have difficulty with this when first getting into it? Perhaps I'm just a nice guy? Maybe I'm not as dom as I'd have hoped for. We have our safe word, but it only takes a few times of her saying no or a few squeels of pain to make me stop. I need to sort this out and stand up and be a proper dom. I know she pretty much has no limits, and she would enjoy being humiliated and treat like a piece of meat, and that turns me on so much and makes me so horny, but when it comes down to it I just find it hard to go through with it. It usually takes a lot of alcohol and drugs for me to unleash my fury and do anything I want, but I'd love to be able to do it sober. What to do?