So, here is the deal - I'm married. Have been for the last 5 years, and at the VERY begning of our sexual relationship there was a small level of kink involved - tying down, blindfolds, sensations (like ice), warming oils, positions. But the kink intrest soon went away due to his job and a few other things these last few years. About 3 months ago, while we are at it I asked him to spank me. And he did. Since then it has just rapidly progressed into more. Do keep in mind that to my knowledge my hubby doesn't know I'm interested in bdsm (as a sub). Although I'm sure he may suspect it, as I suspect he might like being a Dom or being dommed. My point is...last night as I got throughly fucked - twice - and I noticed something. I noticed that I didn't really start feeling really sastified until he started getting rough - hair pulling, biting (neck, ears, ribs..), pining my wrists, nailing me deep and hard - giving me what I'm aching for. Anyways, I was wondering how normal or un-normal I am becoming? Does anyone else feel this way? Or am I alone? Perhaps I'm not wanting bdsm after all? Perhaps what I'm wanting is just really rough sex with some kink?? No, I think I do still want bdsm. If I didn't then why did I take a shower in hopes he would join me and I would get to be on my knees?