Didn't know where to put this. Feel free to move. So I have this really complicated fetish that has to do with Master/Slave-pet scenes. It's complicated because everything about it has specifics and rules. It makes it so hard to find anyone willing to participate, it's hard enough finding anyone in my area as is because this kind of thing is like total taboo. My husband is OKAY with me fulfilling my fetishes, not that many of them actually include sexual encounters. However, I have a kid, and it's hindering to find anyone. On top of the rules, having a partner, it being taboo to most as is, AND a kid, it's impossible for me to find anyone! My guidelines aren't even that bad... but bad enough I suppose. Those are my rules. They do seem strict... people don't seem to get what "No intercourse" means. -- I know most of the time these things do include sex, but this particular fetish is not about sex, it is more like being a 'workhorse'. A slap on the rump or being pinned down, stuff like that is totally okay. I've explained this many times over with many different, potential owners. Anyways I'm mentally frustrated that I can't do this anymore, that I can't find a long-term owner, because of a kid, and the other various reasons given above. I just want to SCREAM and sometimes break all of this off but I know I can't. Eventually I think I'm going to explode... it's a passion going unfulfilled.