(first installment)WARNING!BAD SPELLING AND GRAMMER Hello again.. I am a new sub though I've known I'm a sub for a long time. I sorta incountered BDSM close to 20 years ago in Dallas while I was working in the theatrical arts (lights, sets, sound no acting) when a friend of mine asked me if I could desing and run lights for a little event they were producing called "Beyond Vanilla" as they had no money I would be doing it gratis. well I coulnd't say" no" to the women who deflawered me some ten years earlyer ( and I'm still gratfull) so I found myself meeting some of the most interesting and kind people I have ever incountered including ( not to drop names or anything) Fakir Musafar ( the spelling is most likley incorect) as I spent time with these people and attended many partys I became fasinated with the practis of BDSM and quikly learnd that it was nothing like I thought it was. and when I was "assed" for lack of a better term it was clear (as I had already begain to suspect) that I had the personalty triats consistent with a submissive. no effort was made to get me to "play" more it was just sujested I might enjoy it. due to the circmistances of my life at that time(bad marrige/active alcoholic) it was for the best that I didn't persue that aspect of my personality at the time. shortly after that I found my self doing the lighting for West Coast Drummer Pagent as is was likely that I was the only stait male in a two block area I found the whole thing very amusing and interesting. Never again will I here the song "Welcome to the jungle" with out some very bizare imagrie coming to mind. now fast forwad a few years to when I got into recovery and met my present wife who I shall refer to from this time forward as Goddes of the Universe or with the acyronim GOTU. We met decided we could stand eachother enuff to live together. had lots of great vanilla sex ,2 kids and generaly put together a good life. next time in installment 2 I'll tell you of the events that lead to our first...a.. scen? dosent seem right more like an exploration of SM. untill then Thanks for reading. Ezra ps. please feel free to ask me anything as I am a very open person maybe too open and not likely to take offense.