Obedient Little Puppy
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I am wondering how vital this is to others of you in your games, as it is a really big issue for me at the moment.
I am an extremely shy person, in the bedroom (to a certain degree) and in my everyday life too. This extends to having extremely poor eye contact, being able to look someone in the eye for all of about a split second before needing to look away.
The very first time I met my master, I could barely look at him or even speak to him, I was so nervous, and yet now, to look at us, you would never think that. But it took a very long time before I could look into his eyes, and maintain that eye contact.
As well as being a huge deal for me because of my shyness, I find having to make eye contact humiliating, because I feel really exposed, like all my thoughts and innermost secrets are being laid bare for my master's pleasure, maybe even his amusement. But it also makes me extremely proud, because I'm pleasing my master, and building up my own confidence at the same time. When we played out our burglary scenario at the weekend, he was looking into my eyes for long periods of time, and because he was wearing a skimask, it was pretty bloody scary. And yet I loved it, felt confident, and wanted more. It's actually come to the point, for me, where if he is the one to break off our eye contact, I feel this odd sense of frustration.
And now he has come up with some new rules for me. At my insistence, he has decided on a 'position' that I must assume whenever he orders it, sat bold upright, hands clasped behind my back, legs open, eyes lowered, and if he says 'eyes' then I must look directly into his eyes, or, I assume, he will punish me.
I'm eager to see what others of you think of this small, and yet so powerful, activity, how it affects you and the games you play
I am an extremely shy person, in the bedroom (to a certain degree) and in my everyday life too. This extends to having extremely poor eye contact, being able to look someone in the eye for all of about a split second before needing to look away.
The very first time I met my master, I could barely look at him or even speak to him, I was so nervous, and yet now, to look at us, you would never think that. But it took a very long time before I could look into his eyes, and maintain that eye contact.
As well as being a huge deal for me because of my shyness, I find having to make eye contact humiliating, because I feel really exposed, like all my thoughts and innermost secrets are being laid bare for my master's pleasure, maybe even his amusement. But it also makes me extremely proud, because I'm pleasing my master, and building up my own confidence at the same time. When we played out our burglary scenario at the weekend, he was looking into my eyes for long periods of time, and because he was wearing a skimask, it was pretty bloody scary. And yet I loved it, felt confident, and wanted more. It's actually come to the point, for me, where if he is the one to break off our eye contact, I feel this odd sense of frustration.
And now he has come up with some new rules for me. At my insistence, he has decided on a 'position' that I must assume whenever he orders it, sat bold upright, hands clasped behind my back, legs open, eyes lowered, and if he says 'eyes' then I must look directly into his eyes, or, I assume, he will punish me.
I'm eager to see what others of you think of this small, and yet so powerful, activity, how it affects you and the games you play
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