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SluttySub: Thanks. I got hope, but am nervous about it.

My wife isn't bi, but loves lesbien porn. She says its because she can see herself in either position for double pleasure. I'm more than happy to watch it with her though! :D

Andy350125: Other people seeing it as not normal is a huge problem for me too. Only my wife and her best friend know about my likes.
 
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L8NightQ

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Always -

Since I was a kid - before teen years.... Before I knew what it was.

I remember how I felt when I watching cartoons and would react when I saw a woman get tied to the railroad tracks by the villian (cartoons).

Anytime someone was tied up and helpless I was watching. When I saw first tit shots in playboy I imagined what the girl would look like tied up.
When I first got the chance, I got off with just tied sex, then it felt even better to get her off while she was helpless. I could almost absorb her energy when she came, and I could make her come again. What could be better than that.

Not abused as a child - have know idea how I got that way, just always knew I was that way.

No porn, no internet then, didn't see it somewhere else. Never stopped. Sometimes suppressed.... But never stopped.
 
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Ceilidh

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Sluttysub, I too have recently done some in depth thinking. Thinking about things in your past and present and analyzing them and "connecting the dots" throughout your entire life...It can be quite the eye-opener.

I have been thinking long and hard how to word my post...But I just don't know how to word it because my submissiveness is "wired" into every aspect of my life. I'm not saying I'm some doormatt and I let everyone walk over me. Just most. But like everybody you have your fill and let them know when enough is enough.

Now, why is submissive in every aspect of my life? I'm not sure. It could be I was raised to be "seen and not heard" -- which could be why I'm so naturally silent and observant. Also as I was growing up, I never got into trouble -- I was never punished or dissapointed my family. Perhaps since I didn't experience that growing up could be why I want to be spanked..? And could also be why I'm a bit of a martyr for pain now..example, I currently have had a headache for the last 48 hours, and haven't taken any medications...

It could also be partly because of my "daddy issues" -- Yes. I have "daddy issues" and I don't need a therapist to tell me so. I'll spare everyone these details, but I will say that I have related my "daddy issues" to my need of being wanted by others...Like I will go out of my way and then some, to please and do as my friends ask..Sometimes when they don't even ask just so I could feel wanted or needed by them. So, maybe that has something to do with my submissiveness...

Fantasies. The fantasies I had when I was very young, mostly revolved around being tied up and kidnapped.....when I started "self love" I would always feel guilty afterwards....

Porn. The porn I always looked at were females, for a couple of reasons -- 1) I could imagine myself in their place and 2) the photos of the men just didn't seem realistic to me...I mean come on. If you were to have 10 random guys walk into a room and drop their pants, how many would really be that big?? My boyfriend at the time was so small it was riddiclous.

And even before I discovered my Submissiveness. I was always wanting to be tied down during sex and blindfolded...
 
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sluttysub

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"What an exciting topic to do a paper or research on!
I would be afraid of what my professors would think though haha"

That would make for a very interesting paper! Maybe you could teach your professors a few things! Bring out dominant/submissive sides that they have repressed, lol!


Ceilidh -
Wow, you're thoughts and experiences could almost describe me to a T! The only difference is that I did have all the spankings as a child, right up until I was 15. I always thought that might have had something to do with the way I felt. Reading your post, I can see that maybe I was too hasty in that line of thinking. Maybe it had nothing to do with it and that, as you put it, it's just in my "wiring". You're right, it is eye opening to look back through your life and connect the dots. It's amazing what we can find.

And even before I discovered my Submissiveness. I was always wanting to be tied down during sex and blindfolded...
I was the same way. Looking back, my boyfriend (the one I lost my virginity to) and I experimented quite a bit. Blindfolds and wrists tied to the bed were normal occurances for us...
 
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Gypsy_Arose

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I always just knew it as well but never fully understood it. When I was younger and masturbating to the idea of being sold and forced, I just thought that it was average thoughts, not submissive. However, when I was in middle school and found myself just playing with buckles and actually tied down my 4 limbs to the bed (I have small wrists so I was able to slip my hand out to release me) was when I realized that my ideas were a bit more different than the average folk, heh.

Also, whenever there was a movie scene where anyone was being restrained/held back, I would always be very intrigued so that was also a hint..

I've thought a couple of times if I'm just like this because it's who I am or because of issues but I don't care. I like it so I won't question it :)
 
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