So I've been trying to decide what to do with my life, and it doesn't seem to be going well at all. I thought game design would be a good career choice, but when I went to the penny arcade forum for advice, I didn't necessarily get shut down, but it still gave me a different perspective on it. I'm probably not cut out to learn programming, but all I really wanna do is be creative. I write, but I want a visual medium to go along with it. I'm not good at drawing either, so comic books seem to be out as well. I just feel like I'm back at square one with the the whole thing and it's very frustrating. I wrote a comic book script a very long time ago in high school and it was very good in my opinion, but unfortunately I stupidly left it there and lost it. It's probably all in my head but seems like every time I try to do something creative something holds me back. I'm tired of living on SSI because it's so limiting, and there's no way I'll be able to raise a family on such little money, but at the same time it's so difficult getting even a small job being disabled, especially in this shitty economy. I could be wrong, but I'm pretty sure employers would be much more likely to hire the able bodied person over someone in a wheelchair. People call me a conspiracy theorist when I tell them how I think about life but I feel like it's true on some levels. Sorry for the rant and the wall of text but I needed to get this off my chest.