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Discussion in 'Section open for any subject to discuss' started by RS1981, Feb 27, 2011.

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  1. RS1981

    RS1981 Member

    So I've been trying to decide what to do with my life, and it doesn't seem to be going well at all. I thought game design would be a good career choice, but when I went to the penny arcade forum for advice, I didn't necessarily get shut down, but it still gave me a different perspective on it. I'm probably not cut out to learn programming, but all I really wanna do is be creative. I write, but I want a visual medium to go along with it. I'm not good at drawing either, so comic books seem to be out as well. I just feel like I'm back at square one with the the whole thing and it's very frustrating. I wrote a comic book script a very long time ago in high school and it was very good in my opinion, but unfortunately I stupidly left it there and lost it. It's probably all in my head but seems like every time I try to do something creative something holds me back. I'm tired of living on SSI because it's so limiting, and there's no way I'll be able to raise a family on such little money, but at the same time it's so difficult getting even a small job being disabled, especially in this shitty economy. I could be wrong, but I'm pretty sure employers would be much more likely to hire the able bodied person over someone in a wheelchair. People call me a conspiracy theorist when I tell them how I think about life but I feel like it's true on some levels. Sorry for the rant and the wall of text but I needed to get this off my chest.
     
  2. sillylittlepet

    sillylittlepet Active Member

    oh you got advice from PA?! =D
    Omg I totally read your threadddd

    Well, many comic book writers DONT draw their own comics. They write the story and dialogue, then an artist draws all the panels so comic book writing doesn't have to a completely shut door.

    Is your disability being in a wheelchair? I'm pretty sure that unless your job is labor intensive, employers don't really care that much. They want to hire the most qualified person
     
  3. RS1981

    RS1981 Member

    Yeah well like I said people tend to call me a conspiracy theorist so I guess I'm a bit distrusting of employers, there's alot of senseless discrimination out there. I haven't had a job since I was 16, possibly at least somewhat due to my disability. So basically for a while I just gave up on finding a job at all and I've been living on SSI since I was 18. Well I'm 29 now so I feel kinda useless.
     
  4. sillylittlepet

    sillylittlepet Active Member

    you havent looked for a job in 10 years?
     
  5. RS1981

    RS1981 Member

    Yeah... Pretty bad huh? I recently wanted to but I've been dealing with a terrible wound for almost 3 years. Hopefully I'll be getting plastic surgery to heal it for good and then I'll work on trying to find work again. It's a pretty shitty time to try to find a job though considering the economy sucks. I need to stop being so distrusting and try but I feel like I've been out of work for so long that my chances of being hired are even worse.
     
  6. RS1981

    RS1981 Member

    So I checked PA again and got some more positive news. I think I may shift my career path temporarily and maybe go into journalism or pick up a QA job at a game company here, and keep game design as a hobby. Hopefully something will come from that. I need to heal up as soon as possible though so I can get started.
     
  7. sillylittlepet

    sillylittlepet Active Member

    I think you need to thicken your skin when it comes to job hunting, I'm not exactly the best voice here being only 19 but if you have a bad attitude in getting a job its only going to make things worse.
    You preemptively think that employers wont hire you, which is basically just setting yourself up for failure. When you dont get the job, you feel justified like "oh well I'm disablabled so OBVIOUSLY they didnt want me" instead of "well maybe I wasnt the best qualified for the position". Thats not really a conspiracy theory, thats just negativity. I dont want to sound mean, but you haven't looked for a job in 10 years. You're almost 30 years old, you have a lot of hard work to do and looking at the glass as half empty is not going to help you

    Don't create excuses for yourself, go and get it done
     
  8. RS1981

    RS1981 Member

    Yeah I guess you're right. It's about time I start getting out of this rut and make something of myself. I think my biggest problem is I've talked myself into thinking if I don't like the job I'm applying for I don't want it. I need to stop thinking so narrowly and at least get some experience. What I don't understand is, that if you're right and employers don't hire me because they don't feel I'm cut out for it, then why does it happen every single time? I'm not being obviously negative at interviews either, and I seriously doubt employers can read my mind lol.
     
  9. sillylittlepet

    sillylittlepet Active Member

    How is this attitude helping you? Look at what you just wrote, look back at it for a second. Read it out loud. Listen to how negative and self-defeating that sounds

    Stop

    I applied for over 50 jobs last year, no joke, every single store in the area around me. I was turned down from every single one of them. Eventually I did get a job and it was really great. I didnt let defeat get me down and neither should you
     
  10. RS1981

    RS1981 Member

    Wow 50 applications before you got 1 job? I guess that gets rid of the idea that it's just me... I hate the state of our economy right now, it makes everything that much harder. It's weird though, everyone has different luck, not everyone has that much trouble finding a job. One thing's for sure, if I ever plan to start a family I need to start looking as soon as possible. I know you don't really know me but I appreciate the talk, especially because of the fact that you don't know me because you didn't have to. I guess everyone needs a good verbal asskicking once in a while to knock some sense into them.
     
  11. Sparrow69

    Sparrow69 Moderator

    you could go to social services, and they can help you get a job through their listing of jobs for people with disabilities.
     
  12. Frostig

    Frostig Member

    If you know how to do game designing then you are set. You can design art, company logos, commercials and sorts. If this is your dream job perhaps do designing and editing for other companies, that way you can bring in your experience to the table. Far as comics go write them on your free time as a hobbie. There are places where u can get them printed and made, with that make an online store or stop by a convention and sell them for side money and you get to have fun along with it
     
  13. RS1981

    RS1981 Member

    The design part I'm not worried about, it's the years of programming courses that I'll have to take to get in the door. I'm really more interested in storyline and art than in the technical stuff though. I've considered animation but I'm really not sure what goes into that besides art skills. I'm just having anxiety about it because I'm getting old and I don't want to feel like I haven't lived up to my potential. I can probably get a regular job sure, but I want more out of life than just being someone's bitch forever.
     
  14. Frostig

    Frostig Member

    I hear ya. Well you can always go to college and then go to was-mart even part time. I understand the age thing. My mom didn't go to college till she was in her late 40's. She's working now but the point is, if u want to do something, its never too late. Waiting only makes it worse.
     
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