I would prob get locked up in a secure hospital if I aked my psychiatrist about this lol Basically anti-depressants do nothing for me, and after watching BDSM whipping videos on internet I find they turn me on. Self-harm obviously isn't a road I want to go down so what if I got someone to actually whip me and inflict pain? Because the pain is controlled it may actually benefit me more than just the sexual side. I could try and imagine my issues are being "whipped out of me". Do I make any sense? All the mental health professionals in the UK can offer is drugs, it's useless. I don't want medication.