Hello! I am new here as well as to bdsm. My husband and I have been married for 5 years and have discussed adding this element to our relationship. I have always enjoyed rough sex and watching the bdsm porn but had never been brave enough to request it. I finally laid it all out and my husband was very turned on at the thought of dominating me. Anyways....we just had our first "experience". I am actually on my period so there is a limit to what I can do. He sent me a text message and said he was getting in the shower and I needed to be in our bedroom with no shirt or bra in the position waiting for him to come up. I had replied to his message to ask his permission to shower and get ready first due to my situation but he did not get the message. He came out of the bathroom and was not happy to see me still in the living room. He had me follow him to the bathroom and proceeded to punish me for disobeying him. He pulled my hair, forced me to my knees, had me suck his dick deep throat thru the gagging and choking. He pulled my nipples harder than anyone ever has in my life. He forced me to take his load in my mouth but did allow me to spit it out in the tub. My point of all this is it hurt. It really really hurt more than I expected it to. I did not stop him because I did not feel it was too much but I cried and he worried at first afterwards. i explained to him that I cried because it hurt and that it was supposed to so yes I am ok. But this is my point, it hurt. It hurt alot. It was almost to the brink of what I could stand but not. I guess my point is that I didn't expect the pain to overtake me like that. Now this has not scared me off of this by any means. I definitely want to keep going. But I need to know how to get past the pain. Will it just take time to get used to it or are there things I can do to step back from the situation instead of only being wrapped up in the pain? Or is that the point? Is the pain supposed to be all-consuming like that and I'm not meant to be able to focus on anything else? Any input on this subject would be great appreciated.