So I have been wanting some heavier play, more pain and experimenting with a little blood. I have really been obsessing about it a lot lately. Then.....as I took my lab for a walk tonight my neighbor's Great Dane charged me and threw me to the ground. The knee was ripped out of my jeans, both knees and palms are chewed up and have gravel embedded in them. Myu whole body hurts and I am covered in bruises. Isn't it ironic that these injuries and lasting pain would bring me so much lasting pleasure if the way I acquired them were from my D? I actually enjoyed the initial Adrenalin rush but about 5-10 minutes later I was in tears. I guess its not much different than the way I react to heavy play.