MIRROR: Download from MEGA So, Master and I have decided to start 24/7 now. I'm a fairly decent slave, I do what I'm told for the most part but I'm having some trouble in a couple of areas. 1. Giving up my stubborn side. I'm incredibly strong willed, stubborn and argumentative. I'm having a really hard time completely letting go of all power that I apparently believe I posses over myself. I'm very much into Master making all of my decisions for me, but I still can't seem to get over the convenience of having things my way. Is this something that comes with time, or is there something that I can do to help myself? 2. I'm still pretty terribly shy. I always have been when it comes to anything sexual as far as verbalizing what I want, ect. I'm better though. We talk about things very openly and I'll say what I want, but I usually feel embarrassed. I'm not sure why, as I have no reason to be. Master has been with me for almost two years now, he know absolutely every part of my body, I don't hide anything from him what-so-ever, I don't even close the bathroom door, so I'm not sure why I still feel a tad bit embarrassed. 3.I know what I want, and the majority of the time it's things we're not really ready for. I don't want to move so quickly that I mess anything up or that I take on too much too soon, but at the same time, I feel like I'm ready for more than I'm currently taking. 4. I have a hard time with pain tolerance. I absolutely love that aspect of our relationship, I'd be more than thrilled if Master would just beat the fuck out of me, but last time anything got a little more than tolerable I stopped it. Not only did I stop it, I did so in a very demanding tone, so well, Master wasn't happy with that. Thus, we now have a safe word. ^.^ Anyway, is there anything I can do to tolerate the pain better, or to push myself further without, for lack of better wording, freaking out? Sorry this is long, and I kind of rambled. Any advise on any or all of the above would be appreciated.