Recent content by praefect

I had already broken when I wrote the first post. I'm going to track back here a little bit and then move on beyond what I posted here already. I have asked myself in my life what it means to break. I have felt close to it, at some points. I have felt stress, and pressure, and forces seeking...

I broke, and in retrospect, it was one of the best things ever to happen to me :) If anyone cares to know, I'll gladly expand on that ;)

Is this your boyfriend? A dom? Do you have a relationship with one another or are we talking about play session?

That depends on why you have a hard time. What goes through your head when he demands obedience from you?

There is really nothing anyone can do to help me with my grief. I know what it is that I have to do, and that is to allow myself to feel. That was kind of hard when the first wave hit. Every time I focused on my loss I would let one tear go before my defenses kicked in and I emotionally...

An unhealthy dynamic. Yes, exactly. We used to have a great one. For 18 months things went as good as can be imagined. But ... a lot of things touched upon in both your posts. Thank you. It's going to take a while before I write another reply because, well, it would be a long one. A very long one.

My slave gets wet when I get angry. When I get angry, it's a guarantee that I get domineering, bare my metaphorical teeth, so now she finds ways to trigger me. I don't thinks she consciously decides this. It subconscious, and manifests itself in forgetting to do things, such as pay the bills...

Does anyone here have any experience with this? It's something that we slipped into a while back, something I have read some about here and there, and overall I think it's a fascinating phenomenon. But, honestly, I would love to talk to someone about it that has more experience with it than I...

would you say he has a hard time wrapping his head around internal processes of any kind, empathizing at all? My little ones had this problem. Their story is nearly identical to your own. A real big problem was that they were unable to communicate on a very basic level because they didn't see...

Only when I had cats. They ended up training me in how to treat them. I gave up on teaching them anything.

For starters, you could show genuine gratitude when he does assert control. And move on to encouragement. Something along the lines of... Please, Daddy, tell this humble pet your wishes, your will, for your will is mine, and my pleasure bound to yours. What pleases you is what fulfills me. What...

unshaven. I like that they don't. And I like that I can pull on it. :)

tread carefully, for you tread on anothers soul hurt, but do not harm guide with purpose trust your instinct patience is key punish not in anger, but correct with measure lead by example, not by fear do not deceive, others nor yourself When you take full responsibility of someone, do take full...

I had absolutely not a clue. Eventually I was hit over the head with a brick and suddenly everything from earliest childhood on fell into place. The first time I had sex I realized that I had to take control if I wanted it to go my way. She was a virgin, too, and after 5 hours and like 500...

I apologize in advance. I know I'm going to rant now. Too much caffeine. I have two slaves. A male and a female one. Your analytical approach reminds me of my male slave. You wouldn't happen to enjoy the instructions of a well laid out manual, too, would you? In any case, no contact orgasms...