Recent content by decoyicus

Last night went well, he accepted it and said he would give me as much time as I needed. I was a little surprised that he just accepted it but then I thought it's probably just his submissive nature.

I'm seeing him tonight. I'm going to be honest with him and tell him I do not love him but that I want to love him and that I need time. From now I'm going to try to let him in more and get past defenses, love is a roller-coaster but I think this young man is worth it.

"Getting back to Decoyicus' thread, I loved my ex-husband with all my heart. I was totally committed to making things work with him, and when he left me I was devastated. I came very close to suicide. It took me a long time to get past the depression he left me in. But, as painful as that...

My advice would be to shop around, go around the various fetish sites do some reading and see what you're into. Try meeting some other people in the kink community not as partners just as friends and if you meet someone you would like to see IRL, go slow get a real good feel for who that person...

I cant dump him not just like that, I like him too much and I would feel like a asshole, I taught him everything he knows about kink and to then discard him for falling in love with me, well I don't think I could live with myself. Yes I have been hurt in the past and it has made me cautious...

I'm all too familiar with love, I know what it's like to have your heart broken by someone you invested so many emotions into. I don't want to put him through that, he's been through too much in last few years for me to break his heart. I want to love him I really do, but I just don't. Why...

I have a major oral fixation which I indulge, by sucking cock and licking feet, oh I how I love feet wemon's feet especially. I'm also into piss, crossdressing, group sex, being bitten and all round being like treat like a filthy whore by my mistess.

Hi everyone I know I haven't been around much, but recently something has been weighing of my mind. My sumissive came to me about a week ago and told me that he is in love me , with the way he has been looking at me and all the sweet thingd he hs been saying I have no doubt in my mind thst he...

It sounds like your relationship has crossed the line between kink and abuse, if he is unwilling to communicate about this then you have a serious problem. Although going to the police may seam like a drastic measure if you can't get him to communicate and you feel trapped it seams like your...

Like dark said you have some plausible deniability here, still a quiet word to the boss couldn't hurt. I have had this same sort of thing with a potential submissive before, don't beat yourself up over it sometimes its difficult to pick up on warning signs and it's all to easy to brush them off...

I don't think I will be administering that amount again, it made him more uncomfortable than I would like. I had come across the information about excessive enemas during my research and decided to only administer them to him occasionally now. I have been doing quite a bit of research...

So I have A few questions about enemas. Recently I have been administering them to my submissive, mostly to clean him out before anal play but also for A bit of fun. So far the most I have filled him with is 1 1/2 gallon, which seamed to fill him up quite A bit his little belly was very puffed...

I like the 3rd 7th and 8th.

Death after reading your thread I must say I find you to be truly fascinating. I disagree with many of the things you have said, and personally think that waiting for the perfect person is futile as I believe that perfect people do not exist. I have traveled most of the western world and have...

Hi there always nice to see a new addition to the forum. If you haven't already I suggest you read you newcomers FAQ, Sebastian contributions are especially helpful, it can be found at the top of the general discussion board but here's a link anyway...