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    confused, please help.

    Kajmir.. maybe u are right... :) well, thank you all for the support .. really.. this expereince, although a bad one.. has made me learnt alot. I'm glad this forum exists, otherwise I might have just trapped myself in for indefinite period of time instead of exploring more! I'm...
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    confused, please help.

    thank you izrail... well, we agreed on monogamous, regular testing. safeword was set at the beginning but after being "owned"... that was taken away. he said he'll deem what's fit with respect and consideration of my hard limits, which were also discussed. :) he also had rules for me...
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    confused, please help.

    Thank you all for all the encouragement and advices... i was suppose to meet him over the weekend to talk. Before that, i sent him a mesg to tell him how i felt about him coming and going as he pleases, how he never really kept his words, how i felt lesser and worse about myself everytime...
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    confused, please help.

    i guess i should mention that i have been tied up by him before and tied up with a rope around my neck and he has choked me before... I should say that i've never been hurt physically, in fact i think he does take care of me physically.
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    confused, please help.

    Thank you L8night... Interestingly, we have talked about my hard limits when we first began months ago... but over time, he said he's owned me and he'll deem what he thinks is appropriate while respecting, considering my mental and physical well being. he mentioned he is trying to break...
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    confused, please help.

    Thank you for you reply Sebestian. That man said that he has been a sub before.... ah.... maybe i really should step out and explore a little more outside him
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    confused, please help.

    Thank you Tumble and Sebestian for your thoughts. At lease I don't feel all alone with these questions bouncing back and forth within my mind. Logical sense should tell me to drop him but time and again, when i told myself not to submit to him or resist him or ignoring his call when he does...
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    confused, please help.

    We have agreed to inform each other should we have sexual contact with someone else. He did say that I m owned by him but I just don't feel right with his coming n going. It makes me feel as if he's not really concern or serious even though he always say he respects me, thinks pf me. I m...
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    confused, please help.

    Sorry typo - i meant Tumble. Well Sebestian, we did agreed on being monogamous for health reasons. I have also brought to him the need for me to be able to contact him or the courtesy from him to inform me if he is not going to act on something that he said he would. He did apologized that...
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    confused, please help.

    Thank you Tumble and Sebestian for you replies. i suppose both of you have a point. i will endeavour to have a looong conversation wtih him, if history repeats itself, I think you are probably right Tumber. Saying that, i have to wait for him to contact me if he ever will again...
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    confused, please help.

    Hi everyone, I am in my early 20s and started exploring BDSM at the beginning of this year. I found this Master through internet, we've met up. I am attracted to his intellect, his ability to expressed his thoughts, the way he uses his eyes and soft voice to dominate over me. It's been hard...
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